Mother I hear You calling in the
Swelling of the figs and the audacious yellow broom In the knarly local stone and the olive blossom on the trees Mother I hear You calling in the Magic of the fire flies, dancing with the stars And in the distant village lights held in luminous mountain curves Mother I hear You calling In the tenacious, sucking brambles so hardy and strong And the dying brown jasmine whose perfume I still ache for Mother I hear You calling from my Own estranged mother in her recent, reticent words Saying……‘I’m not sure if you want contact or not?’ Mother I hear You calling because I’m not immune to your powerful, metaphoric ways And the delicious subtlety when You knock on my door Mother I hear You calling even though I’m scared I know You understand and respect my caution I’m doing it embodied this time, being present with You Mother I hear You calling deep in my cells Feeling You in every sensation, in every emotion Savouring Your abundance, the rich gifts and intense flavours Mother I hear You calling and in truth I’m desperate and pregnant, longing and ready To receive Your nourishment, resting in your cosmic breast Mother I hear You calling from ancient times and beyond Help me Blessed One to open like a delicate flower Showering my gifts and tenderly surrendering as You do Mother I hear You calling, I’m on my knees Please forgive me, I’m sorry, I love you, thank you Enfold me with Your love and bring me home
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I don’t want to go where there’s no-one I know I don’t want to be where there is only me I’m scared of the silence, of the void inside So I’ve looked outside where I’ve tried and tried My body’s exhausted, my emotions are raw I’m tired of the fight, my mind says no more Give me the strength, ,the courage to be brave It’s time to stop treating myself like a slave Please help me to see that I’m not alone That I really don’t have to be on my own Help me to find that place of surrender Where I can truly be held, so strong and tender It’s time for the silence, to face the dark place It’s time to stop talking, trying not to lose face It’s time to start listening to the voice within Thank you dear spirit, you never gave in Sovereign Green Mantis Queen of Insects Sacred message delivered Angular sharp edges Piercing evil eyes Camouflaged and primed Patriarchal war machine Loveless, sterile matriarch Heart-less and demonic You scare me I abhor you Menacing weapons intact Demanding total allegiance Consumer-ism is all Narcissistic piercing glare Preying on victims Not wasting sentiment Dedicated to survive Programmed to kill Will you ever Stop this madness? Preparing for onslaught Radar 180 Vision Delicious rapt attention Unwavering desire for Blood and flesh Savouring the flavours Tasty property slaves Calculating cold questions Tell or die Fodder play thing Mine to dominate Gaze never lessens Power is absolute You will succumb ‘I am Master’….. She says with Penetrating angry glare Visceral panic alert Deep, dark foreboding Solar plexus clamps Breathing shuts down Razor arms grip Venomous jaws attack Perilous poisonous ‘hit’ Drugged and defeated There’s no escape Quaking in terror Aftermath of shock While predator gorges Cannibal’s pure delight Ripped to shreds Writhing, hopeless agony Screaming, muted rage Precious liquids gone Sucked completely dry Power viciously stolen One more lunch What just happened? Masterful, sinister game Shame cover up Endless repeated ambush Brutal and uncompromising No exposure allowed You must be Guilty without trial What the fuck? Plundered and devoured Torturous living hell Eaten while alive Watching it all Here I am Walking empty shell Anaesthetised, half dead No skin intact Innards ripped out Juices sucked dry Precious life force Authority.…all gone Complete take over This my temple What the fuck It doesn’t matter?! So what now….? Sea of darkness Shattered dreams and Broken, empty promises Vast blank space That doesn’t feel Like pure potential While body moans Throbbing deep aches Orphaned and stranded Shocked and confused Gaping open wounds I’m here now I’m so sorry I wasn’t before I’m with you Now, at last Holding you tight No more the Brutal Inner Mother This Shadow King Usurping female wisdom She who ruled And drank blood This cruel tyrant Who lives everywhere Dark ancestral legacy Poisoning the globe Inside and Out Now I see I honour you IN my body Grounded and strong I’m watching you My heart saying Yes My gut saying No Praying not Preyed In the mines Sweet yellow canary Tiny song bird So acutely sensitive Suffers toxic gas Menacingly quick poison And rarely honoured Sacrificed for others Dies as martyr Un-integrated shadow From ancestral legacy Dark, implicit secrets Like seeping gas Infect open channels Burning the landscape Desecrating the feminine Fascia, skin, cells Abruptly ripped open Energetic ghost imprints Scarred ancient wisdom Shadows ever darkening Hidden in crevices Gasping for breath Shame in disguise Ancestors calling forward Begging for forgiveness Honouring and understanding Welcome HER home Visceral collective memories Vandalised sacred sites Angels, demons alike Inherent fluid wisdom The Sovereign Queen Dormant never broken Years of apprenticeship Returning in glory Reclaiming HER body Giving up martyrdom Honouring chosen karma Bringing back authority Tender and potent Flapping HER wings Sweet yellow canary Breathing freely again Singing HER song |
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