Chronic Lyme dis-ease Deadly neuro toxins Crossing the barrier Gut to brain Happens in seconds You can’t imagine….. What a nightmare This really is Like being injected Suddenly with poison There’s no help To be found Cytokine inflammatory flares Raging for hours Intense body pain Shattering the system Close to psychosis Wired and tired I’ve no respite From unbearable symptoms This never ending Hell on earth I can’t escape My tortured brain My broken body My nervous system Dis-regulated from shock Blown to smithereens Tsunami visceral experience Who am I? Where am I? What has happened? I can’t control The negative thoughts They come from Out of nowhere Neuro-toxins for sure Also something more Intertwined, not separate Screaming ancestors invading My private space As they seek To be heard For the nightmare Lives of misery So long endured These enslaved victims Their haunting screams And tortured, deathly Voices within me Their vacant stares Begging for release Praying for salvation From cruel captors My English ancestors Refusing this plea Sadistic and brutal Inflicting maximum pain So that their Addicted pain bodies Can be nourished By intense suffering This misguided craving And moral disassociation Fuelled by trauma Satiated by agony Filling their veins With demonic hatred These distant voices From untold atrocities And normalised genocide Haunt me still Drowning in guilt Overwhelmed by suffering Carrying the legacy That isn’t mine That seeks to Be honoured and Laid to rest “Let me die” “Please have mercy’ Silent, pleading screams Trapped and overwhelmed With no escape Until thankfully, finally Body intelligence wins Fog and confusion Chemicals take over Disassociation as saviour Numbing the system Bailing right out So - in this Blur of reality What is real Me or them? This generational legacy Buried, conveniently forgotten Ghosts of trauma Contagiously passed down Like seeping mists Begging for recognition For deserved honouring Don’t you realise How I suffer Because they suffered? Their stories untold Their wretched lives Because of our Arrogant, misplaced ownership And twisted entitlement? Please I’m tired Carrying so much I need release From this stronghold Showing up as Mystery debilitating illness This self hatred Refuting any pleasure For shame of What took place Biting my lip Unnamed, unspeakable horrors In my life And those before Not yet acknowledged Not yet healed Infectiously passed on In psychic dna This epigenetic truth Please….finally…..now Will you accept An offering, perhaps? Something to appease? My deep bow And devoted reverence For your suffering And lost lives The heartless degradation Of countless betrayals Buried beneath lies What is possible To honour you? And release me? As your descendent.... So that I May live freely In peace as You were not Permitted to do? Please help me I will willingly Create a ritual Offer my gratitude And humble presence Praying for guidance Speaking the truth Being the whistleblower Anything ……to redeem Anything......to prevent This rolling madness Your unresolved pain Unknowingly handed down Sucking in innocents And silently, powerfully Destroying more lives
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